What’s my motivation?


What’s my motivation?  No, I’m not starring in a movie this week, just trying to write the script of my life!

Each day I think of things I’d like to do.  Sure I have to go to work and take care of the kids, but there are other things out there on my radar.  One that I struggle with is getting healthier and losing a few pounds.  (I also want to streamline my house, reduce the stuff I have, upgrade my wardrobe, garden, write, travel, and pamper myself with a massage and a pedicure…I could go on).

Finding the time and motivation to do all the things that would add happiness to my life is not easy.  Let’s take the example of getting in shape.  I can think of 2 specific times in my life that I made a serious effort to exercise more, eat better, and generally get healthier.  I didn’t do it because it’s the right thing to do for a long life, I did them because I had a certain motivational idea in mind.

The first time, I had just come home from my freshman year of college and I was pudgy as hell.  I felt like a sloth and kind of looked like one, too.  One day I had had enough of my sloth-like state and went out for a long walk.  It felt so good and gave me such a boost of confidence, that I made my walk a daily habit and started making better food choices.  Within a few weeks I felt better and looked better, which made me happier, and it was such a good change that other people noticed and asked me, what’s new?  The happier state lasted a while, and it gave me the knowledge that yes, I could do it.

The second time, I really wanted to have another baby and I was over 35.  You know how doctors like to tell you that your ovaries are done, and they have to test you for everything under the sun if you are in your late 30’s?  (Whatever!)  I believed I could get myself as healthy as possible and have success.  So I started exercising more and put myself on a pretty strict diet.  Don’t get me wrong, I still had plenty to eat, but I made much better choices.  I also went for acupuncture treatment in the hopes of getting all my energy flowing in the right direction! (Love alternative medicine!)

Getting pregnant took the better part of a year, and included some rough months as I weaned myself off of several medications like my buddy, prozac.  However, I hung in there because I had a serious goal and motivation, and felt like it was now or never.

So here I am today, thinking I’m not ready to face wearing a bathing suit in my present state.  I know exactly what I have to do to shed those pounds and tone the bod, but yet, I just keep “slipping”.  My serious internal motivation isn’t there for some reason, probably because life is pretty good otherwise right now. (KOW).

I don’t think I’m going to have real success on this front until someone else makes me accountable and says, “Hey, drop the brownie!”

Do you ever feel that way?  Maybe it’s common, or maybe my basic lazy nature is getting the best of me, who knows?

I just wanted to share this with you in case you’ve had that similar experience.  I am also open to suggestions about how to get over these barriers.  I’m here to help motivate you if you are after a certain goal, and maybe you can help me, too!



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